Outings

This week is a busy one for me, what with having to meet with all different kinds of people for various activities. I find myself more tired than usual, and class more boring than it ought to be. Learning how to read maps is one thing - being lectured about how to read them was quite a drag. I had problems paying attention, so when it came time to figure out the distance of Mt. Diablo in one quadrant of the map took a little too much time, I eventually gave up asking the teacher and read the book which proved much more handy. I figure, maybe I won't have to show up for class all that often. Or at least come later or leave earlier... slacking off to the max. If you ask me in person whether or not I wrote this, I shall vehemently deny it.

And another great thing: I haven't flashed anyone unintentionally all summer long. I have a feeling it's going to be a great semester.

So I'm a hypocrite

From the previous post below, you can tell I was in a bad mood. Really bad. And being the stubborn person that I am, I refuse to take it down for this post even though it will make me look like a hypocrite. Which I am, and I have no problem admitting that. Men can be nice when they want to, I'm a first hand witness to that many times in my life. Anyway, I've gotten over being a bitch (for the time being) and now would like to state that all is good.

I've got a real date Tuesday - not like it wasn't a date last Thursday but I honestly didn't know it was one until he started paying for everything. I insisted that I should pay for my part of the dinner, drink, and movie ticket but he refused, and that's when I started getting a clue. So... I'm not very savvy in the dating field, which means I'm going to be on here asking silly questions about everything and hoping someone has some advice to share if they are still reading this blog. Anyone? Anything would help.

I've never been on too many dates, I actually hate them. The preparation, the body language guessing, the conversation guessing, the deal about who is going to pay for the food, where to go after the food, wondering if you like him enough to say yes if he asks you out again, wondering if he is going to ask you out again at all, hoping you don't sound pretentious, hoping you aren't too boring, hoping this night won't be a total embarassment, etc.

I need a whole new wardrobe, I've found out today that I have nothing to wear for this date. I have nothing to wear for future outings. I have commitment issues, I freak out when guys talk about "the future" with another person (particularly when it is aimed with me), I'm hyperventilating as I type this. Where is the damn paper bag when you need one? Eep.